It had been a few days since I wrote another post again. I thought that some season in my life has been really over the rainy days and dark time seems revisited me with new kind of twist. I do know that this phase of life I can pass through this time. It is not easy! Until…

This Sunday, It’s Interesting Outlook on The Dark and Daylight. I can really take deep lessons from it. See I do not know if you notice that our life has cycle. That cycle can put us on the TOP and DOWN time. So what’s so important about our cycle of life? Before I get to that… Let’s see what CYCLE that I am talking about and why should we be really understand it.

Our life consists of many aspects like Physical, Emotional, Relationship, Finance, Spiritual and keeping balance to get all 5 main aspects is not and easy job! seriously I had been long enough to endure the cycle some of us while we are young we do not understand why things happen and for what reason.

I reminisce the time when I am not on my peak condition, it is a time where I feel I am alone and only time that can bring me to pass and show me there is a glimpse of ray of hope that can make me smile again.
I am talking about the time when I had only U$30 in my bank account and I realize that I had to do something with it again. I never like how that felt but I assuredly can say that was not an easy time to understand. I need the cash to make me survived the daily living cost. I had a few moment like this similar like back in 1998 and around 2003.

Nothing was right in my life but I persist and got through that dark tunnel of my life. Another time of mine, was when I decided how my love life (yeah, I do fall in love). I do not know why this part seems so important other than money but now I know that we are not a creature who made to be single all the time. We need to partner with somebody who ready to support your vision in life and make it to the next level of dating called relationship then take matters into serious hand called “marriage”.

Nope, I am not into marriage stage but I do realize that things happen for reason and sometime those dark times make us realize nothing can be done much unless we really take time to reflect and stay still. For me it’s getting connected to higher power that I called GOD. I am a believer yeah I am, my life has never been the same but also am a man who can fail.

Tough times or Bad Times Happen To Good People or Person That You Care So Much. But life is not always sad or down all the time. You need to actually understand that when a person is in stage of darkness, we all longing for a new ray of light in our life. That ray of light make us see the best in us near future time. Your current situation may not be the best situation to go through at the moment. But keep on having new better vision and future and I know you will pass through it.

Here is what certain in life “Death” nothing can be more certain but that’s later after we finished our greater purpose why we are here. In life other things that are certain are like “People Come and Go in Your Life”, “Door Of Opportunity Knocks In or Closed For You” “Breathing Fresh Air or Drowning In Some Conflicts” and more to that. Come and Go, Open and Close, Breathe In and Breathe Out, Put On and Put Down, Sun Rise and Sunset. More you can add some cycle that happens repetitively in your life. You can not avoid this but you can learn how to use and enjoy each cycle.

It is like enlightenment in my time, when I had someone who is so closed and ready to lay down your life then she left me was not an easy time. Truly learning to be committed and accepting her decision was something that I have to respect. I know I had to struggle with time of my singlehood, relationship that has been nurtured for the past 30 months gone ashtray. As one of us stopped fighting and gone for some other new life venture, which was not really my choice. I tried to fight it back and rebuilt it. But what’s been broken sometimes become a monument to remind me that I have had to learn it.

I’ve had to close a lot of chapter in my life and what I endured was not easy, I still struggle through it like eating the bitter pill I know I had to go through this stage so I can be a grown up man. This was the darkest time in my life. Being a responsible man who take charge of his destiny and fight the fate is a big job!

Making it to the end, I see a ray of hope now. I get better now after a heavy damaged shocked situation. I will never learn to walk on my next two feet if I never had to crawl before. I will never learn to be grateful of what I have until I lost it. Sometimes unheard cry is the best therapy of your life in state of darkness. No one listen to it, except God. Why God sit and do nothing?

Actually He is there.. when friends come and give you word of encouragement (that’s God way of saying how much He cares). When you got a pat in the back and they tell you to get up again, or the whole new perspective of life that you got that’s a wisdom that you should enjoy it more and more. I thank for the new ray of hope that shone my life and changed me to become a better person and bigger heart and fight life to next level.

In conclusion, dark times is the time where time seems so long and get so toughed. Hang on the new ray of hope is there to build you up and make you a better person. During this time, discovering and enjoying the process is the best way. Nothing can be done more except sowing goodness to your current situation. helping people and what they need: attention, energy, monetarily

daylight times is the time where you feel the joy comes in the morning and fresh air of hope and you see that you can go through the tough times without understand why is it there for you. Also it is a time of reaping, you will see how every aspects of your life get in line and becoming one fine line that you can walk on it and jump on it.

Men’s Life Cycle has to endure the best of both times to understand truly what life is. I know that when I am in my low time, I want to fly higher till I forget how low I am. When I am in sad, I want to be happy. When I am worries I know that I have assurance that my life is safe and time is the one that makes me see it. When I am sick I know I want to be healed through times and love.

I can never say enough how I love the life that is bestow upon me, once I understand this I am ready to fight to get out of my darkness and reach the light. Have Faith for Greater Glory!

Never Never Give Up On Life! Learn From Your Down Time and Get Up Again! Be Awesome !Enjoy The Process and Celebrate The Event …Your Internet Buddy, Dee Ferdinand

This Sunday July 6th, 2008.

It’s not my average Sunday. I thought I woke up around 11 am, in fact I woke up around 9.00 and I had more time to do things in the morning. Had breakfast and I am trying to fit in my schedule to update my blog for things that I did on July 4th - 5th, 2008.

I am so grateful that in my life there are new friends and awesome people that surround my life and help me to become a kinda person who are grateful for the life that I took.

I remember 10 years ago, I did not have any Idea what I had to do in life and what kinda job I will have in the future. I thought I would be some computer whiz but I asked myself deep down if I ever wanted to do that kinda job cause I hate to do programming. So once I finished my high school years with a lot of effort since I graduated in Australia (English is my second language) I could pick any university that I wanted to enter.

I asked myself this “what kinda life would I like to live it five years from now?” I can now say this easily. I did not have the answer 10 years ago. I was searching for myself, discovering the real purpose why I am exisiting on this earth, I know I had to be myself but what kinda responsibility that I have to undergo? that I did not know”

I went to uni after carefully choose a bachelor degree that I would like to do. It was multimedia the new kind of degree offers by Monash University, Berwick Campus - Melbourne. I was in the second batch, I love the study there it was so much exploring and learning curve. I know that I would be in media field doing all these kinds computer activities related. Was it all there is?

I guessed not. To shortcut the story quick… I was hired by the organizing committe of olympic for the sydey 2000, olympic games. I can say it was part of the destiny. Why? First time they asked to do voluntary work. With all expenses I had to undergo and living for one month in sydney, australia. It was not easy seriously, I had to refuse due to the expenses.

But seems Destiny has its own way. The plan changed we are getting some pocket money and all the lunch was paid on the committee. I know I had to answer this and suddenly my name pops up in the list of voluntary and will be provided these facilities. I know it was an opportunity of lifetime.  I know I had to find accomodation. Somehow my church network had people that would accept me to stay temporarily. I was so grateful as I know that it would be easier for me to focus on work.

God has been Good. So the day went on arriving on A$99 on virgin airlines using e-ticket I arrived in sydney took a cab and then went to the city of sydney stay at princeton apartment. I went on for briefing day to register and confirm my attendance and was taught how things and rules in the workplace. I had so much to learn, but I know would enjoy the process and make me a better expert.

I remembered when I received schedule, I wasn’t supposed to be in on the opening day of olympic games. But I know I had to obeserve and see how things were done the other day. I asked my team leader if I may observe, so I can do my work better. But the schedule was not followed properly some peopel did not turn up. So I remember where I was asked if I can start early on the olympic opening game. I agreed right away.

It was interesting the job that I had to take since only I was able to do most of the stuff that was asked by the team leader, he made me the leading web editor and was asked to teach other people from other country how to do the job, upload graphics, resize pics, and did all the necessary. We need to wrap up 2 hours opening ceremony with around 500 pictures from various sources and presented. Wow, talk about speed with other 4 people we did ace it. I felt relieved once we finished uploading the last batch. I was meeting my Team leader and team manager and both are truly satisfied. They gave me a privilege to work at my own time not following schedule but they would appreciate if I submit schedule. I remembered at the end of day I had a few exclusive goodies and job paid as they would promise too I am so grateful as I could do serving the world and did what I am passionate about

So how did I really know what I am passionate about? One thing I know that I love to socialize and learn that other people must have their own good in spite if they have done bad. And learn that you can influence them and be their friend was one of the privilege. I love people.
There are so much potential in each one of us that yet to be discovered. Seriously, I did not know that I had to look for my passion and purpose in life. Until I was revealed by the truth that our life has purpose and mission when I was back in 2003.

You need to apply what you learn is also the most revealing factor in my life, I had to study then apply taking massive action. I can say I like what I did and attended the Unleash the Power Within from the World Class Action Coach “Anthony Robbins” is another story.

I know I had read his book and was really motivated by his story how a janitor now can feed ove 2 millions poor people and change the life of people. He is a human that exercise what he learned, he took massive action for change. one of the pivotal moment it was the firewalk. It was a thrilling experience. Seriously, I hate fire… who would not right? I had to step on it barefeet on the 7m course, and I know that I had to do it if not I would regret it.

I felt it was a metaphor that I had to take if I want to do something different. I had issues with my life and felt rejected a lot of times by people whom I love I also made a stupid decision that sacrifice the person whom love me. I learned the hard way but I knew I had to take responsibility due to the decisions that I made. I am taking responsibility of who I want to become and the life of success that I want to achive. It was not easy but life was never easy it had its smooth time but also rough times to make the journey exciting.

So.. today is not my average sunday! I had took the hardest path, know I am on my way to fulfilling my destiny and on the verge of making every right decisions, financial, relationship, health, spiritual and emotion. I do know this that July 6th’08 I can set myself a target 5 years from now how I want to become what kinda life I want to live. And the journey is just beginning.

Happy Sunday!